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There are moments when life creeps-ever so slow-upon you like the flashing of a cannon ball coming through your living room. Times when you feel less than less and lower than something like low. Times when you know you really dont deserve the Lord. Times when everything you are seems to have rejected Him. Maybe not outwardly; but in your heart. Right now is one of those times.

I am listening, listening to my own heart beat pound in my chest. Sometimes wishing this cadence would end so i could meet the Father and be done with the present trials of life. The wounds inside are fresh; i want Jesus. However, this wounding has left me running from him, running from him because im scared to trust.

I really am done with not trusting him though. It has left me in a far worse state than i imagined. Not in the sense of life going to hell, but rather in the sense you can feel so far away from God when you just spent the morning talking to Him. Feeling that far away because you know there is something you have to give up and you just dont want to do it. I have to do it though. I want to much.

And i am not implying that to give up to get is the reason for giving up. I am giving this up because that "so much" that i want is the LORD.

Broken records make me want to shout and bust them. and right now thats what i feel like. but this time it will be different. it has to be.

hasta luego Los Angeles

I am on the bus right now leaving LA. Trainig was long, really long but neccesary. We have been going over the curricilum for our classes and practising various teaching methods. I will lose a day on my flight to hong kong, which means I will be a day ahead of evry one in the states. Continue to keep me In prayer. I'm writing a legacy for future generations, pray the fallow ground be broken.
Levi

LA

im inLA for training and about to leave to hong kong for 4 weeks. im believeing for some divine connections. keep me in prayer.
levi

farwell to oralndo

Dear friends,

Well that time has come. I am leaving orlando once again to further what the lord is doing in me. I will be flying out on the 25 to kansas city then moving my stuff tospringfield illinoise-where i will be going to school. I will be flying out of springfield-possibly st. louis. To LA for a week of training then from there i am off to hong kong!!!!

So keep me in your prayers.
broken by grace, consumed by faith
Levi

Update

Currently i am in florida working for the next few weeks. saving money to move to springfield, illinois. And also raising funds still to go to china at the end of june. Much love fam :)

China

Friends, Family:

This summer I am venturing-once again-to Hong Kong. For those who have known me; you know my heart bleeds for missions.

For two years I have not left the states, despite opportunities to do so with out me having to raise a dollar, solely because the lord spoke to me to sow two years into America without leaving this soil. To believe that these two years would plant a seed that I would reap later in life; to believe that God would raise up a modern Moravian mission movement.

With these two years coming to a close, my soul burns for missions more than it ever has. You never know how much you love food until you go without it. And with these hunger pangs, my heart groans to once again look out and believe in faith for the nations.

I am asking you to believe with me.

I will be gone for 5 weeks encompassing June and part of July. After which I will be returning to the states to attend college In order that I might better serve overseas. More so, in order that I will be able to get into any "closed" nation the lord leads me to. With a degree in English I will be able to get into places most missionaries are not aloud.

The purpose of this letter is to ask for your support. Financially, yes. More for you support in faith and prayer. Call it ludicrous, but I could care less if you give money or not.

I care, however, if you will believe with me; dream with me. That in this time something will break open in the lives of the kids I will be teaching; In the faculty of the schools. Believe with me that nations are shaped with words spoken and not with guns fired. Believe with me that a life wasted on Christ can raise up a thousand Daniels in the court of Babylon.

Napoleon said that "China is a sleeping giant and if she is ever awakened, the world will not be able to stop her." Will you help, in faith, to raise this sleeping giant?

Broken by grace, consumed by faith,

Levi David Ferguson

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I'm dreaming the world all over again. Again, again, again, and again. Not that anything was wrong with it the first time. but i have hope in me so big it threatens to rip my chest open. So i sit here late at night with eyes colored red; hoping that these soft whispers of a decadent whisper will have enough laugh in them to become real. I want them to be real. I want them really. Laughing with a soft hint of bitter loneliness; i write. Inked words forming the crumbling outline of this magnificent city i have all laid out in my mind. Can you see it. Come a little closer. Still no? Maybe your eyes are too innocent. People die. Slow, cruel, agonizing deaths. WE HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT. Along with the laughter, mirth and cheer. We HAVE to have that moment of silence in everyday: that moment when we know how short life is; that moment when the heaviness of hopelessness steals the breath form our lips. We have to have that moment. If not; how will we ever learnt to appreciate the moment we have now?

I'm dreaming again. and I'm bleeding the color green. Artist walk in living color. I'm searching for a canvas to spill my paint on. Are you ready? This one is big, and deep. and it will take more than everything to see it through. This is my dream. and it just might kill me...but if it does know that i died laughing; knowing how all this will end. He is coming. Coming like a lion and a jealous husband, a jealous father. And if i don't see this dream through, he will do it for me one way or another. You see, its not really my dream. its His. And He is dreaming the world all over again...